I had been feeling so good, 11 days past surgery. I was lowering the amount of pain meds, in fact this had been my best day yet. It was late afternoon and I decided to take a shower while our house guests were out. While in the shower i imagined writing this about the ackwardnes of doing the most mundane tasks. However, while I was dressing my knee slipped and in reflex i put my injured foot down to catch myself. The excruciating pain had me crying out in agony for quite a while. My family members were worried and feeling helpless. It took me a long time and meds to calm myself. About 2 hours later I told my mom I wasnt sure what bothered me most, the foot pain or the Idea of messing up my surgery.
I keep feeling like I am starting over. My foot was broken July 24th, the pain began to subside and then surgery August 12th. Now, when I was starting to feel better August 23, another set back. I am terrified of messing this foot up further. Normally I am a strong person but this is starting to get to me.
Endless days of foot elevation........
I find I dont feel like talking to anyone. I want to do things myself and cant. I get stressed out by others. I now constantly fear something happenning to my foot. I have to plan pain meds around functions.